End of Life

Watching Mum die from a terminal illness was the most emotionally stressful situation I’ve ever been through. Everything that happened from 5th November 2017 (the day it had been discovered that Mum’s cancer had spread and was incurable), was so difficult that it is beyond comprehension. Mum was in a hospice for a few weeks duringContinue reading “End of Life”

What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?

Number 2 – Realisations in grief The second thing I’ve learnt since losing my loved ones is the realisation that not everything about them was good. People are people, they have good traits and bad traits, and dead people aren’t an exception to that rule. The things I would sacrifice to experience one more hugContinue reading “What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?”

Losing my Grandpa

Deda was Nan’s husband. He wasn’t related to us by blood. My maternal grandfather passed away in 1966. Nan met Deda in the late 70s and they soon married. He was in my Mum and Uncle’s life from their teenage years up until his death, and treated them as though they were his own children.Continue reading “Losing my Grandpa”

Grief and Fear

Lidia from The Grief Girl talks about the fear that can creep in with grief. “No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.” I remember seeing this quote online after countless hours of scrolling through my phone- trying to find grief support the day after my dad died. I must admit: atContinue reading “Grief and Fear”

Missed Opportunities

Lockdown restrictions for Covid-19 have cancelled all public events and holiday travel. I have found it difficult to be positive about the changes in our trajectory. Let’s start at the beginning; I’m a bridesmaid for my friend who was due to be getting married earlier this year. Firstly, her hen do was cancelled. We wereContinue reading “Missed Opportunities”

Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 5

Lesson number 5 – Grief is unpredictable. Grief. It’s a tricky business, isn’t it? It can be confusing, complex, lonely, overwhelming. It also happens in a different way for everybody. In the case of terminal illness, grief could start when your loved one/significant person is going through the process of dying. Retrospectively, I felt griefContinue reading “Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 5”

Togetherness

I’ve seen so many inspirational and intuitive posts recently. People have been posting about being “together” in this pandemic, as much as people are isolated, there’s a sense of togetherness and community. People are doing things for one another, sharing appreciation for NHS and emergency service workers, and most people who can stay at homeContinue reading “Togetherness”

Mother’s Day

Mum died eight days before Mother’s Day 2018. Today is my third Mother’s Day without her. I know there are people who have lost their mums and view Mother’s Day with apprehension or dread. For me, it’s turned into a day that just happens. I’m no more or less sad today, it’s another day thatContinue reading “Mother’s Day”

Current Events

Due to the current global pandemic (Covid-19), there’s a lot of uncertainty and confusion within society at the moment. At work I’ve been reassuring the parents of the children who attend my nursery. My colleagues and I have consoled one another as well, because life still happens regardless of the situation which is beyond allContinue reading “Current Events”

Two Years On

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to write anything to mark this occasion. To be honest, last week I hadn’t really realised the time of year it was and what that meant. Tuesday 3rd March 2020 marked two years since my Mum passed away. I had been thinking about what I could write but hadContinue reading “Two Years On”