End of Life

Watching Mum die from a terminal illness was the most emotionally stressful situation I’ve ever been through. Everything that happened from 5th November 2017 (the day it had been discovered that Mum’s cancer had spread and was incurable), was so difficult that it is beyond comprehension. Mum was in a hospice for a few weeks duringContinue reading “End of Life”

1000 Days

This might sound like a super weird analogy, but working in Early Years Education for nine years has exposed me to lots of theories and research surrounding development. Early Years research has found that the first 1000 days of a child’s life (which counts from conception to age 2) is a critical phase for the foundations ofContinue reading “1000 Days”

What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?

Number 2 – Realisations in grief The second thing I’ve learnt since losing my loved ones is the realisation that not everything about them was good. People are people, they have good traits and bad traits, and dead people aren’t an exception to that rule. The things I would sacrifice to experience one more hugContinue reading “What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?”

What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?

A couple of weeks ago, Chelsie from Bereavedat22 tagged me in a post headed with the above question. It got me thinking about what I have learnt, and how I can grow and share to support others. Over the next few posts, I’m going to focus on the three main things that I’ve learnt alongContinue reading “What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?”

Dear 10-year-old Rosie

I’m writing to you at age 26, which might sound old, but life is just beginning for you. You have a great job, you went to university (and got two degrees!), you have an adorable cat called Ian and an amazingly supportive boyfriend called Sam. There are a few things I’d love you to knowContinue reading “Dear 10-year-old Rosie”

What gets lost in loss?

Before loss, I was coming towards a pretty secure understanding of my identity. As a person, woman, daughter, partner, sister, friend, colleague. Grief has changed, warped, deconstructed and rebuilt my sense of identity and self. Your identity changes when you’ve had a serious bereavement. Loss caused me to have a wide range of complex emotionsContinue reading “What gets lost in loss?”

Dear Mum

Mum, I miss you more than I thought I would be able to feel anything. Every day something reminds me of you and I wish more than anything that I could hold your hand and hear your voice again. I am so sorry that whilst you were ill, I felt so angry all the time.Continue reading “Dear Mum”

Mum’s cancer journey

Mum was diagnosed with cancer on the 9th December 2016. The diagnosis came after she found a lump in her left breast (whilst she was sat on the toilet), and had a month of tests, scans and biopsies. She went into her diagnosis and treatment with positivity and resilience. That year, we had a lovelyContinue reading “Mum’s cancer journey”

Exercise

The year that Mum died, I decided I was going to run Cancer Research UK’s Race for Life (5K) in her honour. She died in March and the Race for Life was booked in for 10th June. By the time I’d set my heart on doing the race, I had ten weeks to train myselfContinue reading “Exercise”

Missed Opportunities

Lockdown restrictions for Covid-19 have cancelled all public events and holiday travel. I have found it difficult to be positive about the changes in our trajectory. Let’s start at the beginning; I’m a bridesmaid for my friend who was due to be getting married earlier this year. Firstly, her hen do was cancelled. We wereContinue reading “Missed Opportunities”