Christmas 2017

The last Christmas that my Mum was around for (in 2017) was a very difficult day. Christmas had always been something we cherished together. We had always loved doing Christmas shopping, wrapping presents, trying new festive foods, going to Christmas markets, making dinner, watching films together, driving around just to see Christmas lights, and visitingContinue reading “Christmas 2017”

Special Places

I was walking in Battersea Park the other day and I saw a bench with a plaque that was dedicated to a woman who had passed away. It was written from the point of view of her children and they’d written something like “Sit here and chat to one another, have a happy time, MumContinue reading “Special Places”

Losing my Grandma

My lovely Nan, Patricia Dowell, died in April 2019. She had just turned 80 years old, and both her physical and mental health had started to decline since my Mum died little over a year earlier. Nan was always there, no matter what we needed. She was a great cook, seamstress, a fierce friend andContinue reading “Losing my Grandma”

What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?

A couple of weeks ago, Chelsie from Bereavedat22 tagged me in a post headed with the above question. It got me thinking about what I have learnt, and how I can grow and share to support others. I have focused on three main things that I’ve learnt along my grief journey so far. You can read partContinue reading “What have you learnt from the loss of a loved one?”

A Million Years Ago

I haven’t felt very inspired to write recently. I’ve been focused on spending time with my partner and family, and I started a new job. I haven’t been feeling great, and when I feel like that, it benefits me to spend time around my close loved ones. But it’s so difficult that the person IContinue reading “A Million Years Ago”

Mum’s cancer diagnosis

It’s February 2015, it’s bloody cold outside, and Mum and I are going shopping. Mum had a routine mammogram booked in for that morning, so en route to town, we swung by the NHS screening van that sat in big Tesco’s car park, she got her boobies out, squished ‘em into the machine, and thenContinue reading “Mum’s cancer diagnosis”

Birthdays

On the drive home from work the other day, UB40’s Kingston Town came on the radio. It was the day before my birthday and that song is one of those songs that instantly reminds me of Mum. It hit me really hard and made me emotional. On my birthday this year, Sam and I wentContinue reading “Birthdays”

Grief and Fear

Lidia from The Grief Girl talks about the fear that can creep in with grief. “No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.” I remember seeing this quote online after countless hours of scrolling through my phone- trying to find grief support the day after my dad died. I must admit: atContinue reading “Grief and Fear”

After Life : Season 1 Review

After Life is a black humour sitcom series streaming on Netflix. It was created, written, produced and directed by Ricky Gervais. He also plays the lead character, Tony. It follows Tony’s life and journey with grief after the premature death of his wife, Lisa. Series one premiered on 8th March 2019. There are regular mentionsContinue reading “After Life : Season 1 Review”

Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 5

Lesson number 5 – Grief is unpredictable. Grief. It’s a tricky business, isn’t it? It can be confusing, complex, lonely, overwhelming. It also happens in a different way for everybody. In the case of terminal illness, grief could start when your loved one/significant person is going through the process of dying. Retrospectively, I felt griefContinue reading “Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 5”